Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Moving into Sync

(This is a story that was written in spring 2016 for a Short-Story Class)
Moving into Sync
by Noah Harrell
Dream and give yourself permission to envision a you that you choose to be.
-Joy Page
Preface:
This story was inspired by a brief conversation that reminded me of what interests me the most about writing fiction. While unique characters, imaginative and well described scenes, and thrilling plots are all delightful to the mind; It is the power to envision our own futures and the world we want to see that most intrigues me, that delights my heart. This potential to create a microcosm capable of effecting change in the macrocosm by shifting individual and group consciousness is the magical quality that drives me to create. With this story I tried to look far into the future and imagine a world living in complete harmony, then tried to step back and speculate how humanity could possibly get from its current state to that future utopia. So with this goal in mind I wrote this story in the two days before it is due instead of polishing up one that was mostly written. As it stands I think the piece could become part of a series or chapter booke ( I know there are some loose ends). I apologize if it is full of typos and mistakes. All characters and events are fictitious.

Imagine no possessions, I wonder if you can.”
-John Lennon: “Imagine”


Moving into Sync

“Today marks six months since the Gaian council devalued global finances, and honestly Chuck things are better than I think most people had expected.” Said the smiling brunette to her stern, but casual coanchor.
“That's right Dianne” he said as he turned away from her to look straight out of the screen. “It seems like people are really enjoying the new freedoms, and despite initial worry no one seems to be raising concern. GNH has risen exponentially. The Career Assessment Department is finding people jobs that they love. Families are easier able to support themselves . I know I have enjoyed having my student loans finally done away with.” “We have certainly been doing well with the changes.” said Dianne as I grabbed the remote to change to something funny. “ Later in the hour we'll have a special on the biannual initiations that will be taking place in the next few” Bzzp*
“So, not having money. How ya'll been dealing with this?” I settle back into the couch and lay the remote on my stomach. I've seen this comedian before, and he's funny. I think he was a little racists, but aren't we all? This must be a new special. “I mean last week I traded a couple ounces of loud for a months worth of groceries. I wasn't sure. Didn't know If I could do that, ya know. I been confused since this whole thing started. Honestly I'm kind of waiting for someone to show up at my door like 'sir you owe, der der and whatever'” The audience on the screen bursts into laughter knowing that they'd had the same worry. The comedian shuffled on stage, pausing for a second before he continued. “Let's hope not. So the Cashier scanned all my groceries like normal then looked in the bag of Strawberry Kush I handed her and weighed it like it was a head of Lettuce. Right there at the register. She looked at a chart,'hmm whats the exchange rate for chronic?'” He put his pointer finger to his chin as if deep in thought. “'Oh you have some change!' she said and handed me back a quarter bag.” He made a startled expression and acted like he was shoving something hastily into his pocket. “I know weeds been legal for almost a year but my gut reaction was to hide that shit like I might lose a hand if not. That cashier got a big old grin on her face and I got out of there.”
“David Holzer's great!” Jaylin said as he sat down a bag of Sweet Potato chips and flopped on the couch. “I saw this one the other night. The jellyfish bit was hilarious!”
“I just flipped to it. How was work?” I said and grabbed some chips.
“We'll have to watch from the beginning sometime. Dude i'm loving this place. I really never thought I could be so into programming but it's titties! I was working with a bunch of shipping guys today talking about how we can make the software they use better and more efficient. I think we'll be able to cut their wasted time and in half!”
“Nice man, you did fly through those courses the councilor suggested. You seem pretty good at that computer stuff.” I did my best to make it sound like a compliment. I wasn't really sure where I stood with Jaylin at that point and would rather score some karma points than do something that might piss him off. He's been happy since he started the new job but I knew it only had to be a short time before something sent him off the handle again. I'd known Jaylin too long to think otherwise.
“Yeah i've always liked computers just never tried programming until the tests suggested it as my top result.” He kicked off his dockers and put his feet up on the coffee table. I don't think Ive ever seem him do that, not in 3 years of being roommates.
“Did you ever end up taking the test Sorin?” I recoil in my mind at those words. It seems like it is all I had heard for the last few months When are you going to take the test? What did the test say? Who proctored for you, was it Janey? No, it wasn't Janey! The test hadn't said anything, because I hadn't taken it! No Mom, I'm not bored or feeling unproductive! I told her I would never take the test.
“No.” I said and kept looking at the guy on stage in the middle of the LCD display. I wonder if he's taken the test. He was a comedian before the changes started, so at least he's not giving it all up to do what the test and CAD councilors say.
So I took that career test about a month ago.” Said David Holzer into his mic. I noticed Jaylin look back towards the screen. I was relieved that he wasn't pursuing the issue. “I was nervous man, real nervous. What if they said I'd be best as a sewer cleaner? Nothing wrong with cleaning sewers, but I don't' feel it, ya know, calls to me.”
School teacher. That is what I know the test will probably say about me. I know it. Just like my aunt had said. Just like Jaylin's parents told me after i'd decided I was going to school for writing. Just like my adviser had implied when she asked if I was thinking about a Masters in education.
“Well my number one result was a diplomat. Which made sense to me. I mean my comedy is all about trying to bring people together. I could fart in the middle of a tense debate and bring the room to agreement in how funny that seat symphony was!”
Maybe I would like being a teacher but it isn't what I want. I don't really know what I want yet. I want to be the best person I can be, which seems like more than a teacher. All I really end up doing though is sitting around getting high and making some mediocre art every few days. I traded off some portraits I did and have been doing fine for resources but I have been a little restless. I'm tired of being home everyday when Jaylin leaves and still here when he gets home.
“My second result was actually entertainer. I was real happy about that man, and it made me trust that test a little more. Because honestly ya'll, I fucking love what I do! I wouldn't give this up for anything in the world! I feel like I act as social Diplomat in this job anyways.”
Jaylin got up and started towards the kitchen. He slid onto the linoleum with his gym socks and turned around to face me. “Want a burrito? I'm making.”
Sounds good”
*
The Next Morning
“Come on baby, do you know what that's worth?...”
I've got to do something today. I need to get out of this apartment. The car share service is open in Bethel I think. I can walk into town and then drive into Cincy.
“Oo oo heaven is a place on earth...”
My hand finds the plugged-in iPhone next to my pillow and I pull up onto my side to look at it as Belinda Carlisle continues to sing from the tinny speaker.
“They say in heaven, love comes first. We'll make heaven a place on earth!”
Turn off alarm, open browser, log into Facebook. “The Gaian council are alien mind readers!!!” My uncle Greg posted 6 minutes ago. I chuckle and think about the new welding job that he's been enjoying and the house his family recently moved into. It makes sense, their family used to survive on his EBT card, and he was always going on about the phone tappings and drones watching us from the sky. I'm pretty sure you could give that guy everything in the world and he would still think you're trying to get his secrets somehow.
“My face when I started my new therapist job! #TestWasRight” Posted RaylinnThomas yesterday. The GIF of the baby laughing with cake on it's face is a pretty hilarious one. I can't help but feel like it looks just like a home video of myself as a baby I remember. I know my mom never had those films converted to digital but still, it looks strangely familiar.
After scrolling through a few more post I escape the newsfeed trap and start a search for “Car Share Bethel Requirements.” I learn from the first link that I only need my diver's license, and that “rental is based on STC.” I'm not sure what that means but I save the address into maps and put my phone down before pulling on some boxers and heading to the bathroom.
One of my T-shirts and a pair of shorts are sitting on the floor in the bathroom and I throw them out towards my room. Jaylin's a cleaner guy than me and even though he doesn't bring it up I know my sloppiness bothers him. I sit down with my boxers around my ankles and read the jacket cover of one of Jaylin's books that is sitting on the back of the toilet.
Empathic Society : How Childhood Thinking Can Save The Grown-Up World. “In his debut novel Martin Valence inspires a new faith in humanity by outlining a future where there are no longer haves and have-nots but instead sharing and collaboration become the basis of transaction. With a focus on Gross National Happiness, Valence shows us a world where humanity may one day collectively thrive without fear of debt collectors or dwindling resources. In the tradition of R. BuckMinster Fuller, Carl Sagan, and John Allen, Valence is a true polymath who synthesizes his unique understanding of science, psychology, business, politics and more to envision a future that we can all believe in.” I lay the book back down and pull my boxers the rest of the way off before I jump in the shower.
After I dry off, brush my teeth, and comb hair away from my eyes I go back out through the short hallway with a towel around my waist. 7:35AM it reads on the clock in the living room. Jaylin will get up soon. I close my bedroom door behind me and start digging through a pile of clothes next to the bed to find a pair of pants I'm pretty sure I've only worn once in the last couple of weeks. I find them and a t-shirt that doesn't smell like sweat. Clean socks are in my dresser since I hardly wear shoes but I put some on today because I'll be walking a ways. Dressed, I head back out of the room past the closed bathroom where Jaylin is showering, across the small living room and into the kitchen. The apples on top of the fridge are starting to go bad but I scavenge a couple good ones out to put in the cargo pocket of my pants. Stepping out the door I see our neighbor Mike in the courtyard wearing his skin tight bike suit and unlocking his bike from a tree. “Morning Mike.” I say as I shut the door.
“Morning Sorin, going down to the exchange bank too?” He asks looking up from the bike lock.
“No, what is it? That where you're heading?”
“ It's like the new banks, you can go there and trade in stuff you don't need for stuff you do need, or credit to use later. It's just opening today, gonna see what I can get for these carrots I've been growing.” Mike held up the plastic grocery bag of carrots that was tied onto his backpack. “Money's going to be a thing of the past soon bud. You can probably get a lot for some of those paintings you do. Apparently creative stuff is really in demand since it's not mass produced. I've really been trying to pay attention to these new market ideas, Ya know? Lots of changes.”
“I'll have to look into that. Thanks.” since the two commissions I did last year I haven't really tried to sell much art. Buyers are hard to find. “Later Mike” I waved as he pedaled down the thin path and into the street.
“Catch ya later Sorin” Weaved through the wind as I walked across the yard, ignoring the concrete path and stepping down the ledge onto the sidewalk. It takes about 15 minutes to walk downtown so pull out my phone and start looking on Reddit as I walk. Top of the front page is an article about how David Rene Rothschild spent 26 years putting together the Gaian council. Next is a video “Rube Goldberg machine that goes through three houses before demolishing a fourth.” I watched the balls rolling down wooden tracks and knocking over dominoes that lit matches and can't help but think that I really know nothing about the Council. How do nine people get together and completely rewrite the social and financial structure of the world? I let the video keep playing and I hear the rhythmic collisions of linear causality play out as I consider how different things already are from a year ago when the council first became a thing. Last year I was working in a pizza shop barely making enough each month to pay rent.I ate mostly pizza and spent my free time hanging around the apartment. My phone always had missed calls from Debt collectors and credit card companies. I quit that job six months ago, a few days after the minimum sustenance plan was announced. This made it so all citizens are guaranteed a place to live, food, water, and clothes. I'd also managed to sell those commissions to a local lawyer around the same time so I suddenly had some savings.
Those savings were growing thin now and so were my paints.
I focused again on the screen as a series of twisting metal coils start a large truck and send it careening into a single story ranch. The truck goes clear through both sides of the house. The physics powered device has now followed through on a promise the video's title had made. One tap of a domino destroyed a house on the end of the block.
I click back in my browser and open the link to the Rothschild article. I read through the first couple paragraphs but have no idea what its talking about. I know The Gaian council is mostly bankers who wanted to end what they called “monetary slavery”. The article says that David Rothschild Approached the other Eight people with the ten year plan already laid out including The World Bank President, Vladimir Putin, and President Sanders among others.The ten year plan is what's supposed to move the entire planet onto this new resource distribution system by 2027. You can't walk past a bar without someone mentioning the ten year plan. I then read that The Rothschild guy developed the idea with some help from Martin Valence, the same author my roommate reads while he poops. I think it must be significant that I happen to read about the guy twice in the same morning.
As I read further I learn that getting rid of money is only a small part of the 10 year plan. The hope is that the plan will balance out human's use of natural resources enough that drastic climate change, and possible mass extinction can be adverted. I hadn't known that. I also learned that scientist working with the council are close to perfecting a consumer ready free energy source. That's really cool I think. It seems like people have been talking about a good alternative energy source for years now, it will be nice to see one in action.
I smile as I look up from the screen and try to think about the last time I'd read an article about global politics. For the several years I've tried to avoid politics of all sorts. Not just politics, but culture in general, I got tired of feeling like I lived in an echo chamber of ego and greed so I tried to ignore it. I'd only watched t.v. again since Jaylin had brought the 32” toshiba into the apartment a couple weeks ago. I actually got pretty pissed about it and wanted him to get rid of it or at least put it in his room. We finally agreed to leave it for a month and see how it goes. “You don't have to watch it” he'd said. Since then, I've definitely watched it more than he has.
I am almost to the car share place at this point so I put my phone in my pocket and pop out my earbuds. The sound of cars going down highway 52 fills my ears as I cut across a grocery store parking lot towards what used to be a Mazda dealership. In the car lot I walk up to a newer looking Toyota Camry and look at the paper on the windshield “12,000 STC” What the fuck is STC?
I head into the small building in the middle of the cars and approach the counter where a middle aged woman sits, looking down at something out of my sight. “ Hi there. Is this where I borrow a car?”
The woman looks up smiling and pats the back of her head like she's making sure her bun is still in place. She lowers her arm and looks at me saying: “Sure is, honey. I just need your driver's license and we can see what's available for you. Are you traveling for business today?”
No just for fun.” I confess while I hand her the plastic I.D. card. “So what are Ess Tee Sees anyway?” I asked as she typed my info into the computer.
“Social Trust Credit.” Says the lady without looking up from her screen. “And it looks like your STC score is just over 200. So I can get you pretty much any of the bikes for up to a month, or I can get you our most basic car and you'll have to have it back before we close at eight.”
“That's fine. I'm only going out for the day.” I said as she handed me back my I.D.
“So you want the car then? Ok, I'll just need you to sign this and I'll show you where it is.”
As I sign the form I look up and ask her how the Trust Credits work.
“You build a higher score the more you borrow things then return them on time and undamaged. Same with loans. Or if you exchange original products. Remember to bring it back with a full tank or else it gets deducted from your credit.”
She comes out from behind the tall counter and starts to lead me out of the little room into the parking lot. “Borrow a few bikes or the junk cars a few times and soon you'll be able to borrow a nicer car and keep it as long as you want.” She stopped next to an old white Chevy metro with rust covering the driver side fender and held out the keys. “Eight o'clock. Don't forget.”
Taking the keys I nod and say thank you. I open the door and look around as she walks away. A lot of the upholstery is ripped up like maybe a dog had chewed on it, what is still there has a dull grey color from sitting in the sun for years. I start it up and pull out of the parking lot headed towards Cincinnati. I don't really have a plan but for the first time in a while I have a car I can drive around. I switch on the radio and pull the visor down to block the morning sun.
“So how are people adjusting to these new lifestyles?” says a woman's voice.
“Honestly most people really love it. The people tend to be unique and we have pretty tight standards when considering peoples career assessments. The kind of people that get chosen for these communities are usually happy to embrace the changes once they understand what it could mean for the world.” Responds a sure sounding man.
Apparently the person who last borrowed this car was listening to public radio. I let it keep playing because I at least want to know what they're talking about.
“Thank you for joining us Mr. Valence. We hope to hear more about the Emerald Communities soon” said the woman from before.
“Thank you Terry. It's been a pleasure being here.”
“This is Terry Gross and you are listening to all things considered. All across...”
I turn the radio down while thinking how weird it is that I've now heard about this Valence guy three times today. I was really into synchronicity a few years ago. It's an idea Carl Jung had that all of time is organized and that you can move yourself into a more organized time line by following synchronous events. Like for example, talking about a person and then having them call you at the same time. Or having a problem and then seeing the answer written on a bill board. Or reading a book review while your taking a dump and then hearing the authors name twice in the next hour. So Jung's Idea was that if one followed through on these types of events more of this sort of thing would happen until ideally, eventually, reality just seems to fall into place as you move from synchronous event to the next synchronous event. It's been a good while since i've noticed any synchronicity in my life. My mom called me last week just after I'd packaged some pottery to mail her as a birthday gift. I had't thought anything of it at the time honestly. Was that the universe telling me to spend more time with my mom?
I pull around a curve in the road and see Beechmont, one of Cincinnati's newer suburbs, stretch out before me. It makes a stark contrast to the just blooming woods and farms I'd been seeing for the last few miles. The green edging to the trees makes the world seem more alive than it had been for the last few months. I crank the window down even though it is slightly chilly, the sun is out making it look warmer than it is.
Driving past Chipotle I see Raylinn getting out of her red mustang. I pull into the parking lot as she waves to me after lighting a cigarette and stepping onto the sidewalk.
“Heeeayyy” she says as I put the car in park and turn the keys in the ignition. Opening the door I notice she is wearing a beige suit and matching skirt and pumps.
“What's up? Care if I join you for some lunch?” I ask not really knowing what else to say. We had had some classes together at UC and went to a few parties together but were never really close. She wrote some great poetry in a workshop we had together and I always enjoyed her metaphors.
“I'm actually just going in to drop some forms off at the CAD building.” she pointed up towards the sign on the wall with the loose papers in her hand. The career assessment people apparently share a building with chipotle.
“I have to go across town to work or else I'd love to.”
“Yeah, the new therapy job right? I saw our post.” What are the chances I see her after reading her post?
“Yea, I love it. Message me on Facebook, maybe we can do something next weekend? It would be nice to hangout. But, hey I gotta run in.” She throws her cigarette on the ground and steps through the door behind her. Through the window I see her walk across the room past some empty chairs and place her papers on a counter. She says something to a person I cant see then walks back across and out of the room.
“They wanted me to fill out a survey about the test experience.” she said as she saw me still standing by the metro.
“How was the test? it seems like it worked for you.”
“Sorin, you haven't taken it? They'd probably find you some awesome artists to work with or have you writing movies. Take it, it only took like 20 minutes.” She is in her car now and starting to close the door before I muffle a quiet response I don't think she hears.
“Next Weekend then? I'll talk to you later Sorin.”
“Have a good day.” I say but her door is already closed and the car is backing out of the parking spot. I'll have to ask her where she found that baby video that looked like me.
I look back up at the C.A.D sign and close the door to the borrowed car. I'm going to go ahead and take the test. There have been so many coincidences this morning that I figure some great cosmic force bigger than my own arrogance must have guided me here. What do I risk anyways? I can always ignore the results. What have I been afraid of? Is it finding out that maybe that test might know me better than I do? What if it tells me i'm supposed to be a teacher? Maybe being a teacher is what i'm supposed to be but so what, it's not what I want to be. What if it suggests I become a professional artist? Do I want that? Could I have a life like that?
I need to stop thinking about this and just do it! Overthinking is what kept me from taking that camp counseling job last year. And what kept me from going out with Raylinn when she contacted me a couple months ago. Trust the universe! Let this happen, then I'll go back home and everything will be the same. Maybe I'll find a cool job or maybe i'll never think about this test again.
I walk into the small waiting area and see the short bald man sitting on the other side of the counter across the room. The carpet is a uniform grey. The room smells like vanilla and there is a bushy fern in the corner near the counter. There's a water stains around the plant's pot since someone has neglected to put a tray underneath. I look out the windows again towards the crappy white coupe before I put my hand on the counter and address the man who is now staring at me.
“I'd like to take the assessment test if I can.” I said trying not to think about how proud my mom might be because of this.
“Of course. I just need your I.D and we'll go on back to one of the test rooms. My name is Jason, I'll be your proctor today.” I hand the man my license and read the cover of a pamphlet on the counter “Is life working for you? Or are you working for life?” Says gold lettering over a picture of a man smiling and sitting at a desk with pen in hand.
“Alright Mr. Hannis lets go back to room three and i'll get you started. The test takes most people around 15 minutes.” I followed him through a door that led into a hallway lined with blue doors. He opens a door and ushers me into the dark blue room. There is a single over head light, a large wooden desk with a laptop on it and folding metal chair.
“This is room three. Take a seat. First you'll need to just fill out some basic information and then you'll answer some multiple choice questions. If you have an problems just press the “Proctor” button on the bottom of the screen and I'll be in to help you out ok?”
“Thanks Jason.” I say as he walks out of the room. I think it's polite to use people's names if they take the time to tell it to you. I sit down and fill out the first page of information.It's all the normal credentials, Date of Birth: April, 6, 1987. Place of Birth: Anderson, Ohio. Eye color: Blue. Etc. The next page is info about my parents. I leave some segments blank since I don't know a whole lot about my dad. I go to the next page which is asking for all of my social media handles. Theres a little privacy disclaimer I ignore, I have nothing to hide. Facebook.com/soarinhigh87 and @sorinaround which I use for twitter and IG.
After that the test seems kind of like one of those cheesy quizzes that you'd take online that tell you which cartoon princess you are or who your celebrity best friend would be. There are questions like “Would you rather complete a routine task perfectly or do something innovative, even if its not flawless?” Are you detail focused, or do you tend to go with the flow?” the answers are on a scale from one to five. Most of my page is full of threes by the time I get to the bottom and I think that ther's no way they can tell much about me from this test.
To my surprise there is another section with only three questions and I write in my answers this time.
“Are you aware of your feet?” Yeas they are flat on the floor and i'm wearing socks for the first time this week.
“How are you feeling about this test?” Skeptical but positive.
“What shape and color first come to mind?” Purple star.
I hit submit and the screen clears for a minute before a new window appears saying “Congratulations Sorin R. Hannis you have completed the Career assessment exam. A proctor will be here soon to explain your results.” I look around the room and see a similar fern as the one in the waiting room. I hadn't noticed it when I came in but i'd been preoccupied. I look at the fern for a moment studying the fractal similarity in each of the leaves then the door opens behind me and I turn around to greet Jason. He comes in followed by a taller long haired woman who looks like a doctor with her white lab coat.
“Mr. Hannis, this is Dr. Grayson. She'd like to ask you a couple more questions just to make sure we have your results correct. Ok?” Jason said, then left and shut the door again before I had a chance to answer or question. I looked towards Dr Grayson who was now looking into a tablet in her left hand. Without looking up she began to speak.
“Is it true that on the nights of November tenth and elevenths 2011 you and 12 others enacted a ritual to open a subspace portal to the Pleiades star system near Oakland California?” She looked up and held my eye contact through her thin glasses as she waited for my answer.
“You mean the portal concerts? We did a big opening ceremony both nights before the bands started. It was all for fun. Is that what you're talking about?”
“That seems to be correct Mr. Hannis. Is it also true Mr Hannis that you and six other people were gathered on the top of Longs Peak in Colorado the night of December 21, 2012?”
Where is she getting this info from?i'm pretty sure I never posted anyhting about that camping trip on Facebook. Why does it matter that me and my hippy friends believed a little too much in new age apocalypse hype. We were young and there wasn't much else worth believing in at the time.
“Yes, thats true.” I decided to continue. “We were waiting for the world to end, but obviously that didn't happened.
“Mr. Hannis do you know that your Roommate Jaylin Ramsis is a delegate from the Pleiades star system and is not in fact human?”
I just stare back at her. I have nothing to say to this. A few years ago I would have told you honestly that I had met aliens, but Jaylin was not one. This has to be a prank. Their background search must have dug up some conspiracy websites I looked at and now the whole office is having a good laugh at me huh? I never should have taken this fucking test.
“What is this about?” I want to get out of here, I didn't sign up for being fucked around with. “Where are my test results? Thats all I want.”
“Mr. Hannis these are your test results.” She sets the tablet on the desk and crouches down so she was at eye level with me.
“You and I are both human-pleiadian hybrids. If you are willing there is a position available for you in the Emerald Communities where you will be able to learn what this means and how to harness your higher functions to aid in restoring the earth colony. Sorin, we chose to be here before we were born into these human forms. When you placed that quartz sphere into a chalice of water that night six years ago you and your friends really did open a portal that has been delivering new information here to earth. Without that portal, and the second one opened on Longs Peak, humanity would have no chance of surviving the mess they've made.”
Fuck this. This lady must be high. But she knows exactly what I did in that ceremony before FakeDeathSynthetic, my friend Ali's band, played us all into the new age. That was how we had talked about it back then. We felt so sure that the new earth was just around the corner. We were going to be ushers of a new civilization. Fuck maybe we are. What is going on right now?
“So Jaylin is a hybrid too? Does he know about all this”
“He does know about the portals and about your nature, but he is not a hybrid. Jaylin is actually a native Erran. He came here from the planet Erra, which is part of the Pleiades system in 2013 using the portal that you and your friends opened in Colorado. He has been working closely with the Gaian council to slowly awaken hybrids in preparation for the next phase of colony restoration. Mr. Hannis your destiny is to save this planet and help humanity evolve into the perfect civilization it was meant to be. Already you have done so much, now it is time to unleash your full potential.”
“So the Gaian council really are aliens?” I asked suddenly thinking about my paranoid uncle.
“No Sorin, all nine members of the council are pure humans. We Pleiadians cannot interfere in the human's world we can only help when asked. The Gaian council represents the first large scale collaboration between the pleiades and any human agency. One of the most influential delegates from Erra, Martin Valence, is actually hoping to meet with you soon and fill you in on what's happening.”
“So what do I do?” I ask, thinking that I might be going into shock. This is all too weird yet it makes to much sense. Its like a past version of myself is catching up to the current one and saying “oh yeah, you forgot this. You're an alien.” I stare straight at the lady on the other side of the desk unable to focus on the words she's saying. Do I know her from somewhere? She has a distinct cat-like quality around her eyes that looks completely non-human now that I think bout it.
“You do know me Sorin. My name was Lohim and yours was Archion, we were lovers in many lives before these. Many of the female hybrids have raised cheekbones and thin eyes that give us the cattish appearance.” I hear her say this but her lips had stopped moving. My heart is beating out of control. Is she reading my mind?
“Only to show you what you too will soon remember how to do. Telepathy amongst hybrids and Errans is common, only a few of the Errans can read human thoughts. Although many human children are learning how to intentionally share their thoughts and listen to the thought projections of others. This is actually where we plan to have you working: Teaching the new humans.”
Archion. That word rings through my head like the lyrics to a favorite song but I've never heard it before. Why did I doubt this at first? This is who I am! This is who i've wanted to be for years but I had convinced myself that it was all delusion. This is the reality that I traveled cross country in old vans and train cars for years trying to find. This is the reality I gave up on three years ago when I decided to go back to school. This is the reality that left us jaded for the past three years when it seemed like the world would never change, no matter how much intention we put into our choices or how much we reshape our beliefs. This is the reality that I am choosing now.
“Yes Sorin, you are already seeing your power! Choose the reality you want and watch the universe create it for you. Use your belief! Remember how it feels to live in the flow of things.”
She smiles at me and takes off her glasses as I begin to laugh. I laugh harder than I can ever remember laughing. She joins in and we laugh until we're both laying on the floor holding our sides and gasping for breath. Huffing between giggles with tears streaming down my face I hold eye contact with her and know that in another time, another space, this is how we always felt.
“Soon this is how we will always feel. Again. ” She whispers in my mind.


Tuesday, August 4, 2015

This Vibe Alone(Draft)

Now that we've spelled it
can you smell it?
my new frequency in scent
closer than any waves we've known
Perhaps I feel this vibe alone

After the line is cast
Past when the moment passed
We change history so fast
write the future for a clone
perhaps I feel this vibe alone

Once this line is written
and this feeling is hitting
something all new within
like kings on golden throne
perhaps I feel this vibe alone.

I can see the works not done
but i got lost in having fun
seems like we're blinded by the sun
or is that the glare from a drone?
perhaps I feel this vibe alone

When the message is recieved
the stories no longer are believed
there's no one left to be decieved
I thought there was a message on my phone
perhaps I feel this vibe alone

Sunday, August 2, 2015

Hi interconnected network of biological organisms interfacing with machines,
       It's been a while.
       As I sit here on the floor of this Fort Collins, Co apartment, across the street from an elementary school, opening my blog for the first time in 4 years.  I consider who I was when I wrote that last post, and who I am now.
     What Have I learned since then?
     What Have I forgotten?
     For one, I have forgotten to write every day,  perhaps forgetting much of the magic of writing at all.  Now, just a few sentences into this Blog post,that I wonder how many people will actually read, I feel it. At the edges of my perception, like feeling a door open far off in a building by noting a slight change in air pressure.  That glimmer of mystery as each letter and word comes out fresh expressing what otherwise was left hidden.  A sense of relief settles in and I'm left wondering why I haven't been writing.
     I blame motivation, but I know that to be a vague and blurry beast fueled by doubts, fear, self-esteem,  confidence,  self-worth, and lack of discipline. This lack of motivation often walks hand-in-hand with cautious yet impulsive Indecision, and together they skip through fields of distractions and pleasures. Letting myself fall in-tow with this gang of foolish habits I always find myself waking up the next morning asking "What am I doing?"
    Of course, all of the craziness my indecision and lack of ambition  have gotten me into have been the most life changing and value solidifying times of my life.  By not wanting anything in particular I have been able to help others achieve what they want. I have been able to find a flow and movement to life that was previously hidden to me, an order to the chaos. I have had the opportunity to see that anything is possible and to change the world is the simplest thing one ever can do, it keeping it thats hard. But Most importantly, by not wanting anything in particular for myself I have learned what I do NOT want. 
     Now, with less desires and more values than ever,  I sit on a cliffs edge of the rocky mountains, looking east, glancing north, wondering.
     "What Next?"



Friday, September 30, 2011

Hi internet.
I really love this thing we're doing. It makes me happy everyday to wake up and find it all completely new. Dirty Mirrors say not much has changed, but you and me... we see....we see that nothing.
nothing
changing into something
to be anything.

We're not the same. We got greasy while we slept, on the same pillows we've used in the past. All woven in that same old pattern. That same tight encasement patterned in shiny new braces glistening as she steps onto the high dive, at least fifteen feet overhead.  Yelling to her friends in the water her sounds become lost in the symphony of joy and experince present at the city pool. That beautiful song reverberating from the first splash of twilight into the dark. Adding melody her friends scream a little as she moves through the air. Each sounding different yet similar enough to come together in unison, cutting through the hum of being pronounced over the churn of gravity's familiar though astoundingly unique relationship with water.  To which she become a part. Integrated
through emotion
reacting to experience

Surface expanding
the lungs
once they know air
without thought
without action

being is a choice
even deeper
than I breathe.

being choices
deeper
I breathe

be choose
deeper
breathe

be chosen

Breathe
Deep.

.......................................
One Love to Dream All
All Dream to One Love

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

A show for sore eyes.

    We’re all here, everyone made it to the show. It was certainly harder for some than others. Many people forget who they are along the way, or perhaps it happens before they leave. And who knows where we all come from! Luckily we are all here so it doesn’t matter. Though a lot of us do really worry about it, at least in the beginning. They get to the front of one of the lines, I don’t know how many lines there are, a lot is all I can see, and they give their ticket to the door man and ask something like “Could you tell me who bought this ticket? Is there a receipt?” The door man, seeming like he’s used to dealing with this kind of situation will put his hand on the patrons back saying, “You bought the ticket man. Look around, see that crowd? You bought all the tickets man! See you inside.” Often dumbfounded some of the confused will try to get out another question, something like “well how did i get here?” or “where is this?” and of course the classic “who am I?” and as the door man faces the opposite way taking the ticket from the next person in his line they receive the hearty answer “good one, man” accompanied by a short spurt of joyous laughter. I’m sure most of them forget all about their worries once they get inside. They have every time before. We all have.
   

Monday, August 29, 2011

A Thawing Satellite(or feeling something similar)

lower the walls as you
hold in a gasp that comes
in a moan becoming security
opens worlds to feeling
feeling like water
resisting diver
only lying on the surface
~
life aligns endless sines
relay everything about something
and something about everything
saying what speeds up
to slow down
breathing. breath. breathing.
light glistens wet
Luminous, only showing
through the surface
~
In a labyrinth of mirrors they live, with nothing and no one. Often scaring themselves as they sneak around corners, thinking there will be someone waiting to frighten them, rob them, or kill them. They forget what they have. They forget what they are.  They find solace in their reflections when scared. They see the steadiness in similarity and reach out to the mirrors. To simulacrum they confess delight, mistrust, sin, love, and disgust with each new syllable sounding more like themselves:
reflected on the surface
~
Under an ocean we live, with nothing and no one. Our souls radiate infinite light. Boundless light. We experience nothing but purest joy; so much that we don’t know what it feels like. We dance, questioning nothing. Every movement a seed of expansion and growth eventually leading back to our selfs. Fractal thoughts, though not thought, come up above:
our dreams bubble to the surface.
~
I love the feeling of knowing
knowing not from where it comes
like rain. It holds me, raises me up
to see all that I know
to watch it melt in the sun
to leave only the feeling
of a life
that I know
~

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Going out of its mind

Mind how you find
the meaning in
the eye Mind
of the words binding
something similar
in the ears Mind
you bring the awe and
the ugh right out of me
sometimes
i don’t mind though
it’s just the differences.
In my mind you’re perfect
though you’re always perfect
Mind but sometimes
you know it’s perfect.
I know you know.
I’ve seen you Mind
slack jawed losing
your mind in the sounds
and symbols of some
wonderful mind.